tendencies

I knew I had criminal tendencies all along.

But what I never knew was that....

when my criminal instincts start to rear its ugly horns,

murder, surprisingly,

is not priority.

Lately, those instincts have been pushed to the limits

and yet I'm finding myself rather calm.

When left alone with my criminal instincts, my creativity blossoms

and when it does, it scares me.

FGIF

TGIF!

I've never really dwelled on what these 4 letters really mean before. But today, I finally understood why so many people use them.

Thank God It's Friday...

For one thing, I'm finally on a Mon-Fri schedule. So my last day falls on a Friday. This Friday, I spent the whole day cooped up in meeting, trainings and meeting report deadlines. What a relief! I'm glad the week is over.

The morning sky agreed with me and put on a dramatic light show in purple and pink hues. This is the view from the front lobby of the office.

By the end of the day, I was SOO ready to go home. I couldn't wait! Some of my teammates hitched a ride with me in the van, equally happy that the stressful week was over.

Again, TGIF.

Fuzzy again

Bakit ganoon? Ang galing.

Just when you think you're headed towards a deadend, suddenly the doors swing open and you see someone beating down the door.

Is it really an opportunity, or a distraction?
Is it a temptation or a new challenge?
Is it a test of your loyalty, or a test of your courage?

Wala lang. Ang galing.

Not Today

I failed to do something today.

Although I tried really, really hard. I just couldn't do it today.

I failed. I broke a promise to myself.

Just not today.

thoughts while waiting

Today, I had to go to the PAL office in Cubao again, for the third time in 2 weeks.

Does anybody know how big of a hassle it is to go to AliMall? I can't park in their parking space coz the height clearance is only 4 feet tall. I can just imagine the roof of the van scraping the low ceilings of the spiral driveway.

When I do find a parking space across the mall, I had to run in heavy downpour to the PAL office coz for some raindance miracle, it's always raining when I go there.

Finally I'm in the PAL office, I get a number from the guard and I had to wait for the queue machine to flash my number. This time I got 82. Great! The last time I was here I got number 515. I waited 3 hours to be served last time. Maybe this time it would be faster.


Looking at the machine, the number was just at 27. But it stayed at 27 for 30mins. And since it was already 11:30 am, one of the agents took her bag, waved her long hair and punched out for lunch. They have six stations, but only 2 were open. This is going to be a looooonngg wait!

It got me thinking, what does PAL stand for anyway?

• Plane Always Late
• Please Avoid Loitering
• Pila Always Long
• Potah, Ang Layo ko pa

I was finally served at 1:20pm. My drool has dried and my butt has numbed. In fairness the agents were courtoues and helpful. But all the hassle and waiting has traumatized me to the point that whenever I pass through Cubao, I start to shudder. Then my thoughts would wander to the small Mall that started it all.

Clarity

Had a wake up call today... thanks to my best friends.

I thought that if you start to lose the passion, you need to go and find it somewhere else. Maybe that's true, depends on the situation.

How do you find it?

Start counting your blessings.

Stop, regroup and check your bearings... ACT!

Somehow, God put people on this earth to help you find your direction again.

Just as the old song goes, "I can see clearly now, the rain has gone... It's gonna be a bright, bright, sun shiny day!"

It's time to open more doors.

Lyn's mom

I just read about what happened to QS Lyn's mom from Erisa's post on her blogsite. Her mom suffered another stroke, this is her second one.

Lyn told me that her mom's still in the ICU and they're waiting for her to stabilize.

I hope she gets well soon.

Past lives

I remembered what a manghuhula told me years ago...

He was a friend of a friend, back in college. He claimed to be a psychic, can read Tarot cards, NOT gay, can interpret auras, and if he looks hard enough, can tell you your past life, and his name was Richie.

My friends were so enthralled. He said that one of them was a sea witch. The other one was a sea creature, like a dolphin... they actually met in their past life. Another friend was an old soul and she has at least 11 past lives, including a ruler of an ancient land.

He turned to me and started rolling his eyes. With a shake of his shoulder (similar to shaking after one pees) he tried to touch my aura and then blurted out "You have a young soul."

"This is only your third life. Your first life was an african girl, you died young and innocent. Then you were reincarnated into an animal, which was a higher level because animals have basic needs and are closer to God." (whatda?!)

"What? What animal?", I asked.

"As an animal, you bit someone and then after dying your punishment was to become a human again."

"Ano nga?!"

" A bulldog."

Ang manghuhula... translated in English - the "Guesser".

numb

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What do you do when you can't feel the passion anymore?

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Remember

Remembering 9/11

Frigid Freakin Zone

Last Sunday, I drove my Mom to her mahjong session in Cainta. Along Katipunan Ave, I heard a fizzling sound from the van's motor. Then slowly the aircon blower started warming up. I thought the compressor's fanbelt broke. We felt like being inside a moving sauna.

Had the van checked out the next day at Frigid Zone near our place. They dismantled the compressor and found that all the bearings were shot and the whole compressor has already been damaged. The coils have overheated and it pretty much needs replacement now.


Replacing it with a brand new compatible compressor would cost P35,000!!!

WHATDAFA?!?!?!?! Is that for real?

Apparently so. The part alone costs P32,000 and labor costs P2,500, plus cleaning, freon, and so many aircon jargon that wooshed over my head.

This is when haggling really proved its usefulness. I haggled and begged and negotiated and pleaded till their owner got irritated. They finally agreed with P25,000 all-in.

Ka-ching!

It was still a hefty amount of money, but hey, I had no other choice.


They fixed it up overnight, and now the aircon is back, cooler than ever. It still smells of grease and oil, but at least it's working now.

There goes my budget for a new gadget... :(

Sick

I'm sick today.

I hate being sick.

Oktoberfest Tragedy

I was cursing the Oktoberfest party last Friday night for causing such heavy traffic in the area. From the office window, we could see the erected tents along the corner of Julia Vargas and San Miguel ave which pretty much blocked all incoming traffic into the area.


I heard that many people were either late for work that night (call centers operate at night) or didn't come to work at all (maybe that's them under the tents).

My usual 40 min trip home extended to 1 hour 20mins. Grrr!

Today my mom told me that there was an incident during the Oktoberfest event. There was 1 dead and 20 others electrocuted after dismantling the tents after the Oktoberfest Party in Ortigas.

Read full story here.

I realize now that the cursing might have been too harsh...

Lethargic

Lethargic

le·thar·gic [ le tha'arjik ], adjective/adverb
Definition:
1. tired: physically slow and mentally dull as a result of tiredness, disease, or drugs
2. causing lethargy: causing a state of physical slowness and mental dullness
3. synonyms: torpid, lazy, unmoving, sluggish, slow, indifferent, apathetic

- the feeling i have after consuming huge amounts of rice that would feed an army.

- the heaviness i feel when i get out of the pool after an hour of doing laps.

- how i feel after 9 hours of sleep.

- my mental state after reading anne rice novels.

- the numbness in my butt after being stuck in traffic in edsa for 3 hours.

- the way my mouth opens after looking at the team's running stats for September - 55%!

- the feeling after eating 3 mallow cookies, 3 slices of banana cake, 1 slice of chocolate cake and 2 tall cups of hot cocoa.

- the icky sensation during a hot, humid sunday afternoon.

- how i'm feeling right now...

lethargic ... i like the way my tongue touches the roof or my mouth and my teeth when i say this word, sensual and slow with a light click in the end